Ben and Kally got new sweaters and scarves!

Baby me :)

Ben Franklin

Hey everyone! This is my dog Ben. He is a purebred Maltese and is three months old. Also responds to the name Benny and Ben Ben. My boyfriend named his last name Franklin. He knows how to sit and shake a paw. Ben is pee pad trained and soon he will be old enough to go on his walks. We all love him <3

 

 

My Boyfriend

My boyfriend is my best friend. He is who keeps me going throughout the day. He is kind, sweet, generous, and funny. A day with him is always a good day. He makes boring ordinary things into something fun and spontaneous. When we met I wasn't looking for anything in particular but he is all I have ever wanted. I love him with all my heart and I would give anything to and for him. He is my best friend.

Sushi Garden :)

          

          

          

Met up with my friend Michelle yesterday who I've known since grade eight. We ate at Sushi Garden. I'm usually an "all you can eat sushi" person but I have to say that this place is the best. Except it's usually super busy. I got dynamite rolls, tempura udon, and spicy tofu. Mmmm nomnom :D

My cat, my paddington bear, and some menchies...

I always feel so loved by you.

               

Recovering from depression:

Depression is a very serious mental illness but it is also one of the most common of all illnesses. it begins with a gradual state. It can be mild or serious and acute. In today's society of isolation and stressful lifestyles, depression will statistically become the number one cause of death in the future. 

Recovering from depression means you can feel again. It can be difficult because people tend to become addicted to their mental illness. 

Depression took away my ability to enjoy the simple things like prom and graduation. But it did not take my life. And it never will. 

Mental illness does not discriminate. You can be an engineer graduate from Harvard or a homeless man. It doesn't matter. Both can and still will need assistance. 

Recovery means being able to feel again and smile or laugh at the little things. Recovery is a long and painful process and suicide risks go up along the way with certain medications. The process may involve one or multiple hospitalizations. It may come with a misdiagnoses, an eating disorder (resulting from a false sense of control), and other horrible things and sometimes fatal conditions. 

These all make daily life unfunctionable. While your friends may be going on with your lives, your biggest accomplishment will be getting through the day. 

Depression will most definitely hurt your pride, social and intimate relationships, and affect the balance within your family home. 

But Recovery is worth it. Every day that you are alive: living, breathing, fighting, means you are trying. Celebrate the small successes. 

Recovery is worth it. 

"It's Awfully Lonely At The Top"

Independence. It is such an honourable word. I have always had a lot of it because, I guess I worked at such a young age. Learned how to stand on my own and lived far beyond my maturity level. Now I'm such an old soul somedays. Haha. 

Independence means being able to be strong and standing on your own two feet. It also comes at such a price.

When I was little, I never liked team sports. Always wanted to play on my own. Loved tennis instead of basketball or soccer. Because that way I wouldn't have to play as a team. 

Some days I wish I was less independent because I'm in an awesome relationship. Having to learn how to think as a "we" instead of a "me."

Having an independent title and label is hard.

Goodnight all you blog readers out there. 

Xox,

Helena Maddie

Top Shop is such a good store. I love window shopping when I pass by Granville downtown. So happy it opened here. Here's a few outfits from last season...

On Growing Up

You know when you're this little kid who has endless boundaries and all these hopes and dreams? When at one point you were teased or bullied so you in visioned a day where you would blossom into this older gorgeous person with all the confidence in the world?

The truth is, all your insecurities we once had as children are still our insecurities. All the things you thought would make you happy one day, you could be blessed with but it could still be not good enough. Some days I feel like the girl who got everything she ever wanted but still feels like she has nothing. 

When I was a little girl, I had a wish list of all the things I wanted: to be pretty, have money, a good boyfriend. And attend the best college. I hoped that one day I would blossom into this..beautiful butterfly, haha.

When I look at life through photographs I know that surely I have been blessed. My friends and I have had our fair share of good grades, school dances, graduations, theatre shows, and all that jazz. I've been in a loving relationship and experienced the thrill of being young free and single. I've had the university experience and so much more. 

Overall, growing up has been...fun. It has also had its fair share of difficulties. I lost friends and family members along the way. But in hindsight, I wouldn't trade the life I have for anything in the would. 

Good morning everyone and here's my food for thought for the day. Have a great day all you readers out there :)<3.

Xoxo

Helena

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And then she realized: love wouldnt save her. Friends won't save her. Money could never save her. The only thing that could set her free was herself. She had to find it from within.

They say that insanity and intelligence go hand in hand. If that istrue I must be fricken genius :'(

For the Single Ladies ;p

All due respect boys,

These are the worst pick up lines I've heard

"Jeeeee u have a nice voice and face daaaaam"

Ur hot lets do it. 

I flirt with u but then flirt with someone else. Cool story bro, nice move. 

"Omg ur drunk and I'm gonna follow u all night at the party"

HAHAHAA ROFL

;)

My Outfits :D

Infinite scarf by Aldo
Black dress by Brandy Melville
White dress by H&M
Leather jacket by Garage

Made cake and spaghetti with the boyfriend :)

And he made that cookie of me. Not cool.

Frozen yogurt cafes

This frozen yogurt place opened in my neighbourhood and it's my new favorite hangout place. I love putting the gummy bears in it and eating them when they're all frozen.

Kate Spade IPhone case

Bought this iPhone case from the apple store today. Love it <3

I finally have a case for my iPhone 5 so I got to rip off that tacky plastic protective sheet it comes with.

Finally haha.

My boyfriend cooks the best stirfry

We had this for dinner today. It's chicken pineapple stir fry with onions and green and red peppers. I stole lots of the pineapple and ate it. It's my favourite fruit.

Today was sadly the first time I ever cut chicken. I cut it into cubes and did you know chicken breast is not soft and squishy at all? It's actually so rough to cut. Well you probably knew but I didn't.

We always eat our food with Tabasco sauce and it was delicious.

Sushi Date <3

Today I went on a sushi date with my boyfraaand. We got California rolls, dynamite rolls, chicken teriyaki rolls, chicken udon, spicy tofu, tempura, and gyoza. Nomnom :)

Summer Bucket List!

You are a product of your environment.

6 Reasons Relationships End

1. Being Addicted to Passionate Love Instead of Compassionate Love

Passionate love is what we recognize as the honeymoon phase. It is the stage where you begin to date and every little thing feels amazing. The next stage of a relationship is compassionate love. This is the kind of love that married couples have which stems from being in a relationship for a long period of time. It is the stage we may recognize as being "comfortable" because now the couple has learned more about one another and the flame has sort of simmered down. Teenagers are often unaware of these two different stages so when they go from one phase to the next, there is often that, "OMG I am falling out of love" reaction. That is simply not true. It is just a different stage. Passionate love is addicting because it is associated with that "I have butterflies" feeling but most people who are dependent on it usually cannot hold long term relationships and are what society would term as being "promiscuous" or "slutty." 


2. Selfishness

Every girl deserves to be a little selfish in my opinion, but when it is always "me, me, and MORE ME" that gets exhausting for guys to handle. And visa versa. Selfishness in relationships are what usually leads to fights because one or more partners may feel taken advantage of or have the sense of a loss of control. If you are selfish and tend to always do what you want to do on dates, your boyfriend or girlfriend may simply get bored. Or they may feel that you do not care about their interests at all and you will end up not learning very much about them in the longrun.


3. Cheating

If you have cheating tendencies, first of all you should not be in a relationship. Second, if you cheat and still want to be in the relationship with that poor girl or guy, most psychologists agree that you should not tell them what you did. Most people just can't get over it and they will probably end the relationship. Congrats, now you do not have a boyfriend/girlfriend cause you were dumb. You deserve to keep that guilt to yourself and pray to holy jesus that no one will tell them about it later. Cheating will kill that other person's self esteem and they will develop trust issues later on in the relationship IF they chose to continue on with the relationship. They will also bring trust issues into any future relationships. Statistically relationships that begin with affairs will not last. Just honestly, don't do it. And don't put yourself in a place in the first place that you may be tempted to cheat. Also if you are the person who is responsible for playing the role of the mistress and ending a healthy relationship cause you were selfish or just wanted to fool around, you should just go die and you deserve to be cheated on in your next relationship and be alone forever.


4. Not Making Time for One Another

I honestly don't care if you've been in a relationship for a month or five years, you still have to put in the effort to make your significant other feel special. Most of the time when people are tempted to cheat, it is probably because they feel so utterly ignored or unappreciated. It is just a very sad time when someone has to admit that they fooled around because they were desperate for you to notice them. Or felt so unloved they had to find it elsewhere. We all have friends that we want to hang out with, but your relationship is what takes the most amount of time to develop. Your girlfriend or boyfriend should be one of your top prioritizes if you see a future with them because one day you will have to live under one roof and practicing being together for long periods of time can make that transition easier. Schedule in dates no matter how busy you may be and prioritize for one another. Otherwise you'll let your relationship grow old and boring & no one wants that.


5. No Communication

If you do not know how to communicate, you are going to have a hard time in any relationship you try to build. Nobody knows if you were mad cause "your boyfriend talked to that attractive girl you hated at that party two weeks ago." Guys are so oblivious this by the way because men tend to be bad at taking small hints. Couples need to learn how to communicate because being too passive and holding things in will lead to resentment in the long run and cause a feeling of helplessness. Communication is what will make a relationship last.


6. Lack of Love

Not everyone is capable of loving someone and "true" love is actually very hard to find. In my opinion, all you have to do to keep a relationship going is to love one another. The best kind of relationship is when it just feels easy. Love makes a relationship last.

My new Michael Kors watch

I bought this watch yesterday and it is so beautiful like you would not even believe. It is rose gold so it goes well with my everyday outfits. It is stainless steel so it will probably stay beautiful forever. It tells time& date.

Whoever said "money can't buy you happiness" obviously never bought this Michael Kors watch.

The saddest moment of my life was when I realized that I put "pissing people off that pissed me off" as one of my top priorities.

That awkward moment when you confide in a friend and they tell the whole world.

Like really buddy? o.O

Everyone has gossiping tendencies some days but some people just suck. Especially when they're biased and twist your words around.

Like really buddy? -.-

When people do that I just make a mental note and it says in bright red flashing letters, "Wow, never telling you anything personal ever again."

One Day

One day I want a small intimate outdoor ceremony wedding. With all my best friends and family. Maybe on a beach somewhere or in a rose garden. I want a buffet style dinner so we can eat all the food in the world. And have random appetizers like french fries with chocolate milk shakes. And a reception with loud music &lights and the whole sha bam. One day I want to marry the love of my life and BE PRETTY AND HAVE A PRETTY DRESS ;)

One day (if I have enough money and ECE nannies) I want to have a Brangelina family and adopt cute multicultural children as well as have my own kids.

One day life will be more exciting than it is now. One day I will be successful in my career because I have worked hard for it. One day there will be a happy ending <3

Suicide Awareness

Suicide awareness month is September but there are all kinds of people out there today struggling with suicidal thoughts: friends, coworkers, acquaintances, family members, etc.

People crying themselves to sleep or staying at home staring at nothing all day wishing something could  put them out of their misery.

We are all alive for a reason. And I know that may be hard to see at the time, but it's true. Life may suck now, but it may just mean you haven't "peaked" yet. Depression may have taken over your life, but there is always a way out of it. There are resources out there like you would not believe.

If you have suicidal thoughts, that means that you are not mentally in the right place to make a decision like killing yourself. You've just mentally gone too far and you'll regret it. Trust me. If you off yourself it's the easy way out. You will never get to experience life; ie. watch your friends get married, have kids, or grow old with your special someone.

A psychiatrist once said, "I've met lots of people who have a mental illness, but I've never met one that I didn't have a treatment for."